Extracts from Facebook Page
10th
I am going through sorting cupboards, draws, etc out ready to make a move maybe in May and came across a headtorch. Now this head torch really did make me giggle, and it was nice to know, that at last, I am now finding comfort from the memories rather than dreading them. The story behind this torch is this………. our son, who lived round the corner, came round and was saying there was this big spider in his house, and he really didn’t like spiders! So Ian did his daddy duties and got himself all ready to go and sort this spider out. Here is his pic!

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13th
My Ian hated crowds. Even though I dragged him to the football and concerts etc, he used to get very riled and panicky with lots of people about. But this all got cured exactly one year ago today. We were in Pucket with friends and it was the Thai New Year. Everywhere across the island people threw water at each other. People used huge plastic water pistols and ran up and down the streets drenching others. The locals, the children, the adults, the holiday makers, the expats, all join in. It is a huge party with the most amount of people crowded throughout the streets. As most people did, Ian and John went and bought their water pistols. Small ones………….at first…………..then they progressed to the BIG super duper ones. These two grown men were possessed. It was a military operation. HIding behind walls. Covering each others backs. Ducking and diving out of the fire of water. Ians fear of crowds disintegrated with that water pistol in his hand. This day was probably the most funniest, the most belly laughing, day we have ever shared. A very sad smile today for me, but oh how Ian did enjoy it.
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14th
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As a widow, there is always a lot of decisions to make, and I suppose, for me, there is more decisions than normal with living in two countries. The books state that you should not be making any big decisions for at least 12 months after losing your partner. I do not have this luxury. I have to trust my instincts and hope that the decisions I have to make are the right ones to keep taking us forward. I am trying to build something of a future, which is very different from the future I had torn away from me a few months ago. Hey Ho. At least it keeps me mentally busy!!