Extracts from Facebook Page
24th
Strength………..lots of people say to me…………you are so strong………..what the hell is that? I am not strong. Nor am I weak. But just sometimes enough can be enough. sometimes it is all just too fecking too much. Not only do I try and survive without my husband I am fighting a mighty war with the business and it is so stupid. So wrong. So not needed. Today is a very bad day. I will survive cause that’s what I do. Maybe that is what people mean when they say I am strong. Nothing will ever hurt me more than losing my husband. People may do things that I honestly feel is just not right and so morally wrong but hey ho………as my Ian would say………………..that’s their shit Denise. I will keep hanging on…………….even by a thread…………….I will be hanging
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25th
I am very fortunate to have a lot of good people around me. Both here in the UAE and across the waters. After an excruciating day yesterday for several reasons, I still have those kind words, those signs of encouragement, those touch of the hands, those support of we are still here for you etc etc. This absolutely keeps me going. Knowing people care is huge in this world of widowhood. I truly appreciate every little gesture of support. Every little gesture keeps me as sane I as possible can be under the circumstances, helps me go through the day, and helps me survive yet another night to wake up in the mornings. So many people I owe my journey so far too. A big hug and thanks to all of them x
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26th
I have always been one to collect stray cats and dogs and living out in the UAE where this is a major problem my house was always full of animals. Also my home back in UK houses two more dogs and a cat. Ian would constantly moan about them all. Saying he didn’t like dogs and cats etc and stating “God Denise. Not another one!” But I think he was a secret animal lover too as wading through some pics there are several that caught him out! Here are just a few
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27th
Three very long months ago Ian went on his other journey. That’s a nice way to look at it. He went on an adventure. Off to pastures new. Somewhere where I have never been. Experiencing things I couldn’t even imagine. Have fun Mr Midgley. Smile down on us poor buggers struggling without your wonderful personality and great big smile. Protect us if you can and help us to stay strong. And don’t drink too much!!! x
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