Pop up memories on Facebook are things that I tend to avoid where possible, but today I had a peak at mine and laughed out loud haha. This was two years ago, in the UAE, playing golf!!! It was a santa day outfit and typical Ian went all out lol . Though his actual costume … More Golf Attire – Really!!
11 months today – This so called anniversary is a nothingness. Everything is pointing at next month when we hit the big ONE WHOLE YEAR. This month is meaningless. Just another number. Just the last one before the BIG one. I did something this week that I have never done before. I put up my … More The Meaningless 11th Month
I have now decided what we are doing for the forthcoming anniversary. I did think about going to the football Boxing Day, but I think it will be too much for me, so the kids and I are off to Lapland very early boxing day for a few nights where I am hoping we get … More One Year Anniversary Plan
I suppose I cannot have a blog without actually going into the events of the event, so to speak!! It has taken over 10 months before I could do this, and not sure, even as I start to write this, how far I will get. But here goes……… Christmas Day – A great get together … More The Events Leading to the Event
10 Months today. Strange how only a few things are counted in months…………….a start of a relationship; a new baby; time before a holiday; months since you became a widow! Reflecting over the past few weeks, I have come to realise that I have now become two different people in the same skin. I am … More 10 Months
Well Christmas is fast approaching and I have decided to still do roughly what we always did. I shall cook. The family will be here. We will have presents and have fun. We will have champagne and strawberries in the morning because that was what Ian started as a tradition, together with the poached eggs … More Christmas Past and Present
I wanted to write a little about Ian and I, then suddenly realised I could just put up my speech that I wrote for his funeral. It is sketchy but tells a little of our story together………………………………….. I first met Ian nearly 14 years ago on a blind date. Mutual friends had swapped our phone … More The Speech
Sometimes it is good to indulge in the wallowing of grief. Sometimes, as a widow, we have to indulge in the crying and self pity of where life has took us. Take time out and just wallow. Widows have earned that right. We wallow then get right back up and start out days again. As … More Wallowing
I went to a very good friends birthday party last weekend. Several people were there that were mine and Ian’s dearest friends, and four of the lads were Ian’s closest mates over in the UAE. I was not prepared for the full impact of Ian being missing from that party. Every time I looked at … More The Missing Jigsaw Piece
Winter and Christmas is looming, and both will be hard to deal with, but I made a decision today. Tomorrow I am going to make a christmas cake and feed it lots of brandy (Ians fav) throughout the next couple of months. I have only ever made one xmas cake and that was many moons … More Trying to Prepare for Xmas
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