I went along to a psychic switch meeting last week!! It was emmmmmm fun but not very connected to myself. Basically there was 7 tables with 8 members of the public around each one and a so called psychic would sit for half an hour and talk to individuals, then change tables. One male psychic … More Psychics
Post dated from the 26th May 18 months tomorrow. That feels like a bit of a milestone. The last few months I feel I have been in a bit of a depression. Life has been hard even though I try and push forward. But today I got up and I actually thought to myself … More 18 Months
The journey of grief is like a game of snakes and ladders. You take each block bit by bit and then every now and again you get to climb up a ladder and progress, and then, just as you think you are getting there you slip down a big long snake. I don’t think this … More Snakes and Ladders
A part of grieving, so the books say, is anger towards the person who died. I never felt this. I never felt angry at Ian for dying. It wasn’t his choice. He didn’t mean to go. This was a part of grieving that I thought the text books had wrong! Nope.. they were right. I … More Anger
15th March from my FB page It has been quite a while since I last wrote in here. The main reason being that there has been a lot of negative things going on in my life that could not and maybe should not be shared, particularly at this time. Things will be written about … More Turmoil
Post one year is actually extremely hard. I have found I have hit a black hole. I am not sure if I am depressed or just got myself into a doldrum stage of my life. But every day feels a miserable day and that really is just not me. I want to be happy. I … More All is not bright
Well, thats the firsts all out of the way bar the funeral. In some ways it feels worse now. A year ago on all of the ‘firsts’ were happy memories. Now I only see what it was like this time last year – the fall out. This time last year was horrendous. A year back … More I Will Survive
I went out today for breakfast with my eldest daughter and she brought along two of her lovely friends who are also suffering mental health issues and live in the same mental health unit. Both these girls are beautiful human beings that have just been dealt with absolutely crap throughout their lives and have had … More Counting Blessings
I completely underestimated this week. It is knocking me off my perch far harder than anticipated. At the football on Saturday I stood and cried when Stoke played a song at the beginning of the match for those that have left people this year – We can be heroes by Bowie. Don’t even like the … More Caution – Bumpy Road Ahead
I think I am finally on top of the Christmas shopping. I have the tree up and nothing else, nor do I think I shall put up any other ornaments or Christmas decorations. The tree is pretty and is just right for this year. As usual, I have bought loads, wrapped loads, and spent loads!! … More Nearly Ready
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